December Sun

I lie down on the ground looking up to the sky at the December sun
I wish that i was off somewhere else, somewhere with you
The rays are poisoning me with these euphoric feelings
That make me question the reality of this moment
Because I can feel your smile evern when your gone

If I had to make up the guy that i would stay with for a while
He'd probably be just like you, because i need someone who needs me
I need someone who actually cares and someone who i actually mean something to
I was blessed with looks, and people see me that way
But i feel like i'm something more than just a "Barbie Doll"

Your so much more than you give yourself credit for
And if imt he only one that says so, then im the only one thats right
You need to be appreciated and cared for and praised
Not ridiculed and judged and proved wrong because you make a mistake
People fail to see the greatest qualities of people because they they're smothered in their mistakes

GOD, you've got the cutest smile i cant even begin to compare
And you're sp funny even though sometimes it doesnt show
I try so hard to be everything that i think you want me to be
Because even though i've only known you for two months
I think that you ae the only guy that i've ever cared about

The wind blows and an icy chill runs down my spine
I imagine that your here with me with your arms around me
I can feel a sheepish smile form on my face and my cheeks get hot
Thoughts like this make me wonder if im too immature to be with you

We each need someone we can trust and i hope that i can provid ehtat for you
Because thats all that i really want at this moment in time
Your love is nice but right now your trust means so much more
Because relationships founded on trust are strong and long lasting
And i want that, i want to be with you as long as i can

I havent really been this happy in a while
And i know that you are the reason why i am
Because i can feel your smile and your not even here
Looking up at the winter sky with me
Up at the December sun, glowing with gentle ferocity
Laying a simple light on everything showing its true meaning
Breaking it free of its verisimilitude
Including myself